Ten.

The #10 represents so much in my life; 1/10 the day my mom died, 11/10 my daughters birthday, 8/10 my hubby’s birthday, 5/10 my dad & nieces birthday and 10 days until my 35th birthday (3/5). My mom would have turned 60 this year, I 35 & my daughter 10. We had big plans to celebrate in Hawaii! I probably would have went to Vegas also because that & she was my happy place! Today I’m sad because I’m missing my mom and I just don’t feel like myself! I planned dinner with my girlfriends but I’ll probably cancel! I want to feel normal, I want to be happy, laugh & reminisce but I feel awkward! I want to travel for my birthday, as usual, but I’m scared to go alone. I have barely 10 days, but before my new year begins I know I need to clear my head and mend my broken heart!